Hey gang it’s me again. So I finally remembered my login information for this thing. I will try my best to add in links to everything I’ve done since. I have let’s play series of FTL: Advanced Edition, Magicite, and Binding of Isaac on my youtube.
Hopefully it will be the return I’ve always dreamed of!
So it has been a little over two months since the last update. I should have stuck to livejournal at least with that failure to update isn’t a waste of money. Like I said somewhere can’t remember if it was the split second vlog or a text post or maybe to someone but I said somewhere that for a while in the spring I went crazy from some medication I was taking for my highly debilitating medical condition and during that time it was if I was on speed for about a month and half. Also during that time I bought this website. I was moving too fast at the time to do anything with it but as I slowed down from the speed of light to the speed of sound, I slapped WordPress on the thing thinking it would make updates super easy and allow me to constantly chuck content.
That was the plan. Now it’s the fall and I am feeling just as sick or sicker than I have ever felt before. That medication turned me into something that I wasn’t. It made me into an obnoxious raving lunatic and I am sure I blew whatever reputation or opinions of me to hell. No matter how good it made me feel I will never go through that again. I will never subject myself and those around me to that person again. The worst part is that at the time I thought I was finally cured after so long. That it was finally over. Instead the lows are deeper after experiencing such highs. Around two months ago is when it all came back fully.
I’ve spent that time struggling with it and pushing hard again with my doctor to finally kill it once and for all. No answers yet though. Half the time I’m feeling like I’m crazy because no one can find out what’s wrong with me. Is it all in my head? Is it physical? Is it both? No idea. It just never ends and it keeps eating my days away.
The reason for this post is to apologize publicly and openly for anything I may have said or done when I was fucked up in the spring and anything I didn’t do or say over the summer. I keep thinking back over the last handful of months and I get embarrassed and anxious. None of that was me. I don’t even know if I did anything that bad in anyone’s mind but in my own I did. So again if I offended you or did anything over that time I am truly deeply sorry.
That concludes the Life portion of the post now comes the Site News part.
My Xbox died which led to that means for content to go with it. Financial situation has not allowed me to buy a new one until now so look forward to more reviews let’s plays and stack attacking. Yes I know half of the stack was PS2 games but that’s a different story. I’ll be posting the rest of the Charlies over the next week or two mostly for completions sake. Whether they are worthwhile or not I don’t know but at the very least they trigger some happier memories for me sometimes.
And another thing. The FYE membership thing that I praised so highly turned into a ripoff. They don’t tell you about the thirteen bucks that they charge your credit card every month and the magazines were never free. I think that’s it.
In case you are wondering punctlibrium is short for punctuated equilibrium. The evolutionary theory that there are long periods of EQUILIBRIUM that are PUNCTUATED with births of growth. So I guess not updating this place for two months is very much in the spirit of the name. I’ll see if I can’t make it kinda ironic soon.
Thanks for reading leave a comment if you wish. Would like to know if I’ve made up in a small way for what I have done.
On the way home to play it shortly. Just by flipping through the manual, a lot of my preconceptions have turned into misconceptions. I originally pegged this game as a soulless kart racer and i’m glad to see i’m wrong. I was expecting a mostly multiplayer experience but it seems like a fully featured career mode might be taking up most of my time.
look for more impressions and reviews for this game and others coming soon.
OK so I thought I was done uploading but turns out blip auto rejects any file larger than a gig and vegas spat out a horribly audio desynched monster.
currently trying to render a video that is under a gig that will take like 4 hours and then uploading will take like another 4 hours and if it wasn’t for the fact that I put so much goddamn effort into this thing I would just scrap it all together.
Ok so vegas finally rendered the vlog for the second time. Yes the second time because the first resulted in a double vlog. It somehow put two copies back to back. So now I have one video with one copy of the one vlog. So why isn’t it up yet I hear you scream? Blip.tv either hates my laptop or vice versa. I can’t access any blip no views no ups no downs. At first I thought they blocked my IP but they say no. So a big ol Wtf on that.
Hopefully, it’ll all be worth it in the end. At the very least i’m learning stuff.
edit 5:12 my laptop’s wifi card had to be reset and now after that, blip works. buuuut my ISP sucks and it will take like 4.5 hours to upload.
10 MINUTE CHUNKS OF ME IS ALL YOU’RE GETTING FROM NOW ON. uch man if I had a time machine I’d become my own grandfather then try to teleport myself to a desert island so I don’t buy this webspace.
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so the vlog was not as bad as I originally thought I added a new VO for the bad parts which none of my “came with the computer” tools allowed me to do. so I have vegas now. great something else to learn ^^;
yeeeaaahh it also told me it was going to take 3 hours to smush it all together? and then I still have to upload the thing.
so coming soon on that yeeeeaaaahh.
it will probably be up later tonight. let me know what you think
yes I put drawn out yeah’s and there was no CSI: Miami style jokes…
um so sort of got an hour of me talking about split/second playing it and talking about comics and tv shows and stuff. also talked about what I did this weekend. I was at LordKat’s meetup on saturday. the beginning of the vlog mentions that I was there the dude in the blue shirt with the beard and longish hair in the pics. unfortunately, the video kinda messes up there. wow this video is really messed up here and there. i go slow motion a lot. I am going to be putting it up for the fuck of it. um let me know which parts are too messed up to understand I will re say parts.